Sunday, April 13, 2014

deadma

Naghahanap ako ng mabibilhan ng bagong router online, pang-backup kung bumigay na yung luma (wrt54g). Anim na taon na siyang sumeserbisyo, baka malapit nang ma-dedo. Payo sakin kunin ko ay N para mas mabilis at dapat may external antenna. Meron na akong minamata (buffalo airstation n150) pero ang problema, deadma ang nagbebenta. Weemall, gising. Ok sana Weemall kasi nakabili nako dun dati, ay, 2011 pa pala yun. So, ano? Pinabayaan na weemall[dot]com? Mukha nga. Sige na nga, hanap nalang ng iba. Eto, si villman[dot]com. Naku, matagal ko na tong nakikita. Sila talaga walang sagot kahit kelan. Wag na sana nilang lagyan ng online store ang website nila. Nakakaloko, nakakasayang ng oras.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

clickety-clack

rush
i was on fire the other day! clickety-clack on the keyboard. html-text-html-text-html. bare bones code. still up at 5 a.m. i was groggy but wth, i couldn't stop. in my case, it was the kind of rush i'll recover from in a few days.

i will get an html notepad that colors tags (probably notepad++) because regular notepad is slowing me down. catalyst? words from the wise (now dead) -- if you want "always perfect," it won't get done.

so, start it and leave it. then, check with fresh eyes (always with fresh, rested eyes) and edit/update. rinse and repeat. you think the first one's ok? well, the next edit will be good, and the one after that will be better. important though: no tricks, no shortcuts = good results, no headaches in the long run. consistency, design, tidy, w3. wow, the things you learn as you go. lucky me, it's interesting stuff.

two machines
...in four hours. geek services were requested. if you ask a simple "what happened?" or "what were you doing when it happened?" you're screwed. almost always they'll say what they "think" happened and the story throws you for a loop. nothing will add up and you wish you didn't ask. scanned, you say? i don't see a log. cleaned? but quarantine's empty. another machine infected the flash drive? infection's likely from the Internet but ok, if you think it, i mean, that thing's nasty anyway.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

march 4 2014

we're in the third month of the year. wow. the older we get, the quicker time passes - years go by just like that *snaps fingers*. have to put dates on everything.

two to three weeks. that's how long a led tea light has lasted before the flickering light dimmed. if they'll all be like that with how use them, i have many months-worth in the box if i use one at time before i need to buy new batteries.

hardware-scare last night. shut down the pc to take a break - which i always do. i went back, turned it on but the fan just ran and no beep. the he**, not again, i thought. two tries later, it posted - 'resuming windows,' it said. thank you! i think i accidentally hit restart before and not shut-down so it slept.

Friday, February 14, 2014

led tea lights

We have votive candle holders for the altar. I turned LED tea lights on and put them inside.

"Come look!"

"Ganda."

I reached inside the holder.

"Ay, kala ko totoong kandila!"

I bought these 1/27. They were delivered 2/7. Online vendor was Galleon.



Pull the plastic tab out first ---


Battery is CR2032. I've been using a few already, at least four hours every night. Batteries haven't given up yet.

For a night light, I put one in a small lamp specifically for a tea light. Cute. These are really nice with votive holders. It looks real when turned on, with its flickering fake flame, see?

video
(Oops, should've rotated it right side up first.)

Thursday, February 6, 2014

litanya

2/5/14

Bagong taon ang dami kong reklamo. Nag-f-flare ba myositis ko o mataas lang upuan ko? O baka naman kasi inikot ko kama ko? O baka tira to nung bumagsak kanang puwet ko sa upuan nung bagong taon?

Siguro lampas isang linggo na nung pagtayo ko pagtapos maligo eh may nangyari sa right hip ko, parang may naipit na ugat o ewan, basta di ako makatayo sa kanang tuhod at paa kasi bumibigay, di ko sila maramdaman, tapos sumasakit sa balakang pang pinipilit ko. Buti naman at handa ang kasama ko kaya di ako natumba, pareho kaming nagtaka talaga. Bumalik naman ang pakiramdam sa kanang binti kinagabihan pero tila may nangyari nga, may nararamdaman akong nagbago, di siya maganda. Kailangan ko pa tuloy na may bantay simula nun pag naglalakad kasi alanganin, nakakatakot. Pati ba naman lakad mawawala pa? Wag naman po.

Nagkaka-ewan naman talaga ako, bad days kung baga. Sobrang 20 years nato, alam ko na yun. Usually, pag may ganun, pagkapahinga at iwas stress ng ilang araw, bumabalik naman na parang walang nangyari. Relax lang ba at bawas galaw, yun ang importante. Tapos, pag oks na, galaw na ulit at isip-isip din kung bakit nagka-ewan 'tas iwasan yun kung kaya para di mangyari ulit. Ilang taong PT, may statute of limitations baga, hanggang dun nalang ang mababalik kaya igalaw ang natira para di mawala, pray na di na mag-flare pa.

Pero ngayon parang matagal ata. Nararamdaman ko pa yung sa kanang balakang ko, parang kurot sa ugat. Naisip ko nga na tira ba ito nung bagsak ko nung NYD? Nalamog din ng ilang araw likod ko nun, ang sakit, delayed reaction daw. Baka nabalian ako nun? Pa-x-ray ko kaya? Di ko muna pipilitin, baka lumalala. Basta nahihirapan ako.

Emotional at mental din to. Yun madalas nakakalimutan ng madaming tao. Nung pasko may kumausap sakin, small talk, ang problema eh nainsulto ako. Di nila ma-accept, sinabi ko kailangan maging realistic ang goals para maka-move on at tuloy ang buhay. Di daw, malay daw namin, magka-miracle daw. Ano yun? Tigil na, di worth living buhay ko kasi di ako nakakatayo mag-isa? Eh nawala nga yun eh, lampas sampung taon na, di na mabalik. Ilang taon ng PT, pati chiro, pati immuno, ivig (nakatulong to parang magic), ilang milyong pesoses na malamang ang inabot, pawis, ire, luha, wala na talaga. Di ma-gets na ang goal ay i-maintain ang natira para tuloy ang buhay... at ituloy ang buhay.

Naturuan na ko ng mga nagagawa ko mag-isa. Alam ko sakit ko at lagi ako updated dun kaya iwas takot, iwas alala. Tingin kasi nila di galaw yun kung wala ka sa rehab kung san may PT na nagbubuhat ng mga binti at braso mo, labo no? Di ko na kayang tumayo mag-isa pero yung lakad, ipipilit ko yun. Pag good days, walang takot yun, diretso, ang sarap, ayaw ko nang umupo ulit. Kaya pag humingi ako ng tulong, alanganin na yun, delikado na, di ako nagbibiro.

At eto pa, yung dating pa sakin nun, kasalanan ko at eto ang sakit ko. Ano to, parusa? Ano naman ang ginawa ko nung ako'y musmos pa at nung musmos pa ako nung ito'y nagsimula?

Malamang hindi naman ganun pero siyempre sensitive eh. Nalungkot talaga ako nun. Eh ambigat pag nalulungkot diba? Sabayan pa ng galit at inis, naku, naninigas katawan ko pag ganun. Dala-dala ko yun, umabot hanggang New Year's, yan tuloy, naaksidente ako. Oo, sinisisi ko yun kasi ambigat ng puso at katawan ko pagtapos nun. Sana may erase-erase ang utak kasi ganun na kagrabe epekto sakin ng maling salita, susmaryosep. Iwas na lang sa ganung tao kung kaya. Kala kasi nila nakakatulong ang ganung satsat e di naman. Ewan, dapat let it go kasi nakakahina ng katawan, ako nahihirapan, mga tao sa paligid ko nahihirapan, tinitiis ako. Erase-erase.

Nakaka-stress din pag may sumisigaw, may pinapagalitan. Totoo nga na pag-maysakit, gusto mo tahimik para iwas stress. Problema, di mo mabago attitude ng ibang tao. Pero mahaba na to, next time or never nalang yun.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

nyd '14 near-fall

walking out to the rollator a few steps away, holding the door frame for support {this room is narrow; carer is standing by} i miscalculate a step. left foot steps forward but hits the floor too soon. the sudden halt before full weight is transferred forces the right the hip out {ouch, the joint!}. waist bends, torso falls forward, bum falls back on its way - hard - to the floor. then, carer catches an arm and knees finally give way so i land sat on a nearby seat. thank you!
right hip hurt for days.

last week's pancit and lechon paksiw --

Friday, December 6, 2013

trying to make it pretty

spilled on my shirt. i smell of coffee.

sana taste central starts shipping outside mm soon. i could use that 20k trolley... in my dreams.

local ikea warehouse, are you in the works? a white leaning/ladder bookcase might be purchased if and when. form and function.

please do not run a fat blue cable in here. pangit. small victory when i convinced someone to get rid of a big black garbage bag full of very old and funky pillows na we'll never, ever use again. it was ugly and suffocating - it was on a shelf, the first thing you'd see - it sucked the joy and light out of me from the space.

so, the room is nice and cool? thanks. it's true because we've been mindfully throwing clutter out; been doing it in small batches. it doesn't look like much but you can feel it. the end goal is to make it look clean, open and even pretty. it's a process. baby steps. diy. good decorating doesn't happen overnight.

Monday, December 2, 2013

ships, flies, spikes

11/24/13 sunday
caught the free shipping deal on zalora philippines tonight, no minimum purchase required. sweet. x'mas gift-shopping is done. {package received 11/26. excellent.} 

12/2/13 monday
bought another year's av subscription for the machine last night. that's it, no more online purchases for the rest of this year {i hope}... unless it's something i really need... but no, i'm good. that's it.

time flies. it's past 9 p.m. weather's been nice. we're not sweating.

meralco bill's a b*tch: +700 just like that! nothing's changed, consumption's the same. a/c hasn't been touched this year. the chart they have printed on the bill, that spike, where did that come from?!? incredible.

Friday, November 8, 2013

storm yolanda

nov. 8, 2013, friday
getting ready for {what's being called} the worst typhoon of 2013 named yolanda. they put and secured covers over the veranda, and hid pots and pans that were on a long table at our outdoor kitchen. drinking water - check! food - check! batteries - check! transistor radio - check! flashlights - check!
  • it's 5 p.m. it's raining and i hear gusts of wind.
  • it's 9 p.m. the rain stopped but it's still very windy, very windy. temperature-wise, the long-stored balabal is fished out and now wrapped around my shoulders.
nov. 9, 2013, saturday
  • it rained again at dawn. it stopped by mid-morning. the sun came out.
  • still windy. shower-burst in the afternoon.
  • it's 9 p.m. a little windy. no rain.
nov. 10, 2013, sunday
yolanda moved on. we are ok but, sadly, many are not.

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